2005 - Year of Reflection and Change

It's funny how life is just one big rollercoaster. It's starts off slow and then gets faster and faster with twists and turns that come when you least expect them. This year has not been good for just about everyone in my inner circle. Friends and family are going through major changes in their lives right now and it hasn't been pleasant for anyone involved. Friendships and relationships are ending. After all of these years the circle has been divided and is getting smaller and smaller. Those of us who are left cling to each other for support and understanding and guidance. They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I would like to think that my side of the broken circle is the side that will come out stronger and wiser. That the pain is just temporary and that we who are left are being given the ultimate test of survival and strength. That we have the will to get through these changes and move forward in a clear and positive direction. I believe that those who remain in the other part of the broken circle have so much more to learn and are both mentally and emotionally in limbo and that staying whole would only hinder the progress of the rest of us. In time I would like to think that one day the circle will once again be complete. For now, although I mourn the past and the way things used to be, I also celebrate the future and what is yet to come. To those that are left to take this journey with me, hang on tightly to my hand and don't let go. You are the ones who are meant to be with me forever and I with you. To those who have lost their way and continue to struggle, don't give up hope. As long as we all have two hands, there will always be one available to welcome you back into the circle when the time is right. In the meantime, good luck and Godspeed.